EDIT: Gave it a title, the other one annoyed me to look at.
I'm wondering why it rains as I stay and lay wide awake,
Cry in shame, all of my mess ups, all of my mistakes,
Sky is gray, I better fess up yet I try to hide this pain,
Though the smiles vague, it links to my violent brain,
Twitch, itch to bitch just pondering why I'm this way,
Why I even try, when shouldn't I just go and die today,
But I take a stand, ready steady I wield the patient hand,
The world is my notebook and haters better face it man,
You better go and die, I mastered my flow and rhyme,
Admitted, I'm a bastard, a hazard to all of those at times,
Battled the lone and fake, back when I was grown to hate,
Back when I was rippin' and dissin' as cold as a frozen lake,
Back when I was just a kid, and back when nothing hits,
At me and I cared, back when everyone was muffled spit,
That shit was trouble-ish, now I'm pushin' weapons 'gainst,
My next a kin, best be joking if they think we friends again,
Fear the cheats? The only thing being feared is me,
I tear and beat, stronger than ever man I'd clear the street.