After one fateful night where everything changed between us you became the only piece in my mind
I’m just a fool, a sad pathetic excuse of a man to fall in love
Yet you’re the only girl I feel was sent from the heavens above
Flashback to when I first met you. Intrigued me, appealed to me and attracted all five of my senses
Just wanted to get to know you a little better, you amused me with your wild essence
Every moment is a change to turn around, the only thing I didn’t do
Although I’ve always been myself, I’m so moronic at times as you know that’s true
Always idiotic and always showed my weak side. Opened my eyes a bit and reality slapped me in the face
Maybe if I showed a different side, but its too late for that. You already know who I am and how I pace
Nothing wrong with that but maybe if I changed a bit
At the end just me in love I’m the one who got hit
I’d like to know exactly how I fell for you, what caused the process
Even when you wanted another, breaking your heart as a result of progress
You blamed and claimed you let yourself get too close to the one and only
Jeni who defines himself as a free spirit. its all my fault just cuz I’m little crazy
When I walked back through that door that night, my heart started beating faster as soon as I set eyes on you
Just ignored the feeling yet I know there was something wrong with me as I grew ecstatic sitting right beside you
Somehow for two weeks I was on ecstasy
I only thought of you senselessly
One day I told you how I felt
That you’re the only girl that makes me heart melt
You knew we weren’t together even thought we constantly dealt
In my eyes, Together was To Get Her is the only thing I see spelt
You were conscious of my feelings but we weren’t on the same page
Unconscious I was, your heart was elsewhere, for some reason I didn’t rage
Didn’t want to upset you or watch you get hurt, only wanted you to smile
Everything moved on fast and I started dreaming about you after awhile
Mentally disturbed making me absurd, couldn’t start doing anything right
Couldn’t sleep eat drink with you in my head, cant even take a small bite
I tried to erase thoughts about you outta my head with all my might
You stayed stuck in my head, so pure and simple, wearing nothing but white
It started upsetting me, didn’t know what to do next, tried to consult others and screwed up bad
Seeked out some advice from your close buddies and didn’t mean to get you mad
Eventually we’re over it and now I don’t feel a connection anymore
As if we’re both on two separate ends of the globe, causing me a bore
Furious I took my anger out leading to my hands bruised and sore
Didn’t have a friend to talk to when I needed you most, you’d recall I always call you whore
And you’d call me boobs all the time with the msn chats as I’d say bye
I was lonely and had to move on thinking “my fates against me, why?”
One day I could’ve died, in front of my eyes, car crash
If I only decided to cross at that moment I would’ve burnt to ash
At that moment the only thing that came to my head was grabbing you by the hips
Holding you tightly, inching closer, right about to taste your lips
Regretting how I never could’ve had that moment, if I were to die
But guess what? I’m still alive and that’s just my head with a false hope and a lie
I told you I that same night I could’ve died, seems as you didn’t take me seriously
Worried me, got me thinking why am I still thinking about you curiously?
As I still see you around after all the drama with us ended
Nothing feels the same, resulting me to feel dreaded
It’s not as if I’d tell you you’re so beautiful or every word that comes out of your mouth soothes me
The only thing I would tell you is that I’d give up on life if you tried to forget me
The only thing I want out of this is to have my best friend back as she seems so distant
Its not like I could simply snap my fingers and everything would be fine in an instant
Miss you girl, you always kept me laughing with a lame joke
We both have our own problems as you know I got some with my own folk
Just want you to know my feelings are really true
As I honestly don’t mean to worry you
* i wrote this piece awhile back when i was crazy about this girl. shit didn't work out, she was a whore anyway.
just want to see what people think of my writing
** also, Jeni reference, my real name is Jenish (ima brown man)
