I'm slowly falling. Its a funny feeling. Impending doom faced yet I feel no fear.
I plummet from the sky toward the floor. A smirk scraped across my face just like I will be on the pavement.
I wonder what its like to feel the impact. Your head cracks, your brain leaks out the top. It oozes down the street, a sight to behold for all the people happening to walk by. Your bones shatter. Unable to move. Locked in the imprisonment of lifelessness.
Would I smile? Fully released from the hell we call life. Would I cry unable to see sights I hold dear again? That sunset, that smile, fuck, that bottle of whiskey.
Walking hand in hand passed the lake we call ours. Snowy mountains lurk in the background, a beautiful sight. My smirk turned into a shout. Pointlessly clawing the air, trying to find something to hold onto. And then you appear, falling with me.
"Dont be afraid". Your first words. Your hand grasps mine and I close my eyes.
There we are dancing the night away in the twilight of our youth.
The first kiss in the snow. The moment we decided to take it further. I enter you and you gasp, an orgasmic moan peeping out.
The night we cuddle and cry together like a couple of snotfaced kids.
There we are finding out you're carrying our child. The smiles, gasps and laughs.
A hug, a kiss and a celebratory drink for me.
Then I'm alone drinking in a bar. Scotch and cigarettes my new love.
You're at home crying. Your home.
Why did you love that man too? Was there something he possessed more than me?
My walk home. Our daughter unseen to my eyes. I'm alone in the darkness of my soul.
Intoxicated. I swallow down the lump in my throat. Tears enter my eyes. The bed we loved in to the side of me. I sleep on the couch.
I open my eyes to find you gone and me no longer falling. I'm home again.
I fell for you but you didnt fall for me.