Farewell (Track 11)

[Mr.DGAF]

Well, this is it folks. The EP has been finished, and as planned, this'll be my last official drop as a solo writer. Wanted to go out with a bang, so this is it. 100 bars of everything I'm dealing with. You'll need to restart the beat, or you can read the rest acapella, but the beat dies out around 60 or 70 bars in. And I loved the beat, didn't want to replace it or shorten the bars due to my plan all along. I'd really appreciate feed, even if it is long. It means a lot.

Feed: http://forum.trshady.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=147118
Beat: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AsNiZfXu8I


I'm sorry if I hurt you, that isn't the plan
Just forgive me and I'll show you how different I am
I'm still a man, but I've bettered myself, I really have
So I'm sorry if I ever caused you feeling sad
I'm really glad that you haven't given up on me yet
I still struggle with this, I never want you upset
I'm still a man, but I've bettered myself, I really have
So I'm sorry if I ever cause you feeling sad...
I've made some mistakes, but I'm fine with it all
Cause reacting to mistakes will define who you are
No time to fall, either crawl or walk, whatever it takes
Only complacent when I'm sure that I'm ahead of the game
Time to set the record straight, got some things to confess
I've let it fester for weeks, I haven't seen you in less
My heart siezed in my chest, cause you don't even regret
That we have drifted apart, our memories are suppressed
And that's on me so I guess I have to make some amends
Please be patient and when I'm finished say you forgive
Me and the pain can be lifted from my brain in an instant
Take what I'm giving and know that if I say it I meant it
Hate is tremendous, I joke around and act like the pain
Isn't constant, but if I'm honest I am dying to say
I lied to your face, and told you things are fine when they ain't
So with this song I'll go apologize for mistakes
I'm sorry Megan, but I think it's time I sever our past
I'll never look back and fall into a similiar trap
I figured it'd pass, but now I see it's endless, in fact
I'm pissed that we never talk, but I would still hit ya back
If you texted me fast, sorry if the signals have crashed
They've mixed and mashed to a point where I have lost myself
I made a line, stared it in it's face and walked on it
Teeter totter whether I should even bother saying it
But I'm afraid that if I didn't make amends you would hate me, then
I'd never see your face again, so basically I'm sorry
If I hurt you but it's time I take a different hobby
This is me moving on, saying bye when it's due
But I'm afraid I've told another lie, and it's true
I've tried to be cool, and act like I don't care how it happens
Following so many trails, I was there, now I'm backwards
I've gotta get it off my chest, when the standards are high
Damnit I've tried, with all this shit and still I've managed to find
Advantages to handling life and all the shit it throws
It's time I switch the flow and hit a different note
I'm sorry if I missed the boat, you only want the best for me
Better grades and a better life than you were left to lead
Yet you seem to take it farther, even though I know the stakes
Growing older, just a lonely day I spend to hone my grades
Get a scholarship, no following the steps I'm gonna make a path
Take it past expectations, blaze the trail, no way I'll crash
Even if I fail I'll you're always on my side, no debate
So with this song I'll go apologize for mistakes
Sorry dad, I hardly had a choice in my future
It's either do what you want or I'm not your boy, then I'm useless
So I abide by your rules, until I'm out of the house
It's not to spite you cause I see why you are down on me now
I'm out and about, making choices in the long run
That'll shape my life, you're probably thinking that I'm on one
But you've gotta trust your son, I know where temptation leads
All I want is your respect to glow when you're facing me
Which has taken me into another point, cause I've tried
To tell the truth, but fuck it, even that's a fucking lie
Once upon a time there was a mother raising her lad
Her husband left her and the baby didn't stay with the dad
They made a pact to keep it simple, share the kid and his brother
And it was a struggle, I always had to feel for my mother
She didn't have a job, and now she's got these kids to raise
Didn't make a difference, hey, who is she to quit today?
Even if the chips were raised she would always follow through
Every other week the kids she loved would eat their father's food
And that bothered her, cause she would hear the stories from the kids
Now she's worried when the bills are due he'll hurry in and spend
All the money on her bills and think less of her
But the lesson learned was that the feelings hadn't severed first
Yet she worked to seperate herself from the past
Thinking it would work, said she'd never run back
I saw the tears flowing from her face, and ain't nothing worse
Then waking up and seeing mom debate if it's worth
Taking her purse and leaving, let them handle themselves
But she could never do it, had it planned but it failed
She's stranded in hell, I saw the cries in her face
So with this song I'll go apologize for mistakes
Sorry Mom but I'm older now, here to ease the pain
Now she's got a husband and in retrospect, things are great
But the road was far from easy, then again it hardly is
When you have to serve as the mother and father of kids
Follow the trend, and make amends before it's too late
Because regret can only happen if you're worried to make
Another mistake in light of ones you've made in the past
Hard times are gonna follow, you can take it and laugh
Or break in half, and collapse into a shell of yourself
So face the crap, and take a chance, hell if you fail
At least you tried, no need to find a reason why
You've been denied, you didn't take a risk a single time
Peaceful minds stem from burning bridges, thank you guys
I've grown before your very eyes and won't oblige to say I waisted time
Thanks for patience while I take my rhymes to elevated heights
I rarely second guess myself but this is hard to do
Say goodbye to all of you, while I try to start a route
Leading to another path, another strand of my life
I'll make the sacrifice, cause damnit I'm right, peace!

[Eedee]

Jesus man, that was deep. The rhymes, the flow... the emotions just fused together for something really spectacular. I'm honestly sorta speechless. That was really, really good. I'm sorry for my lack of feed for such a long piece, but damn, no words can really describe this other than spectacular... This really hits home for me as well because I'm going through some similar shit to you and you really let the emotions out on this one.

I'm sad to see you go from CW, even though it's only from solo drops, I'm sure Catastrophic will drop some shit. And I look forward to our audio drops, dude.

[Mr.DGAF]

Haha, thanks guys. Really appreciate the feed.

And yeah, hopefully the AS experiments go well.

[Mr.DGAF]

Thanks man. Yeah, the main point of this was to get some stuff off my chest. Of course, I wanted the rhymes and all to be nice, but it wasn't the main point. Still, that's no excuse haha, I see where you're coming from. I do a lot of just rhyming stuff, but I wanted something I was actually proud of. Not to say I don't like my other stuff haha, just...I dunno.

Thanks for the feed man, appreciate it.

[Wreck]

Wow this was deep as hell, & dope as fuck man, really impressed me here, not that you never do anyways, but this was on a whole new plateau I feel, with the deep concept, flow, the emotion in it, & lyrics. 10/10, fantastic job, went out w/ a bang.

[Mr.DGAF]

Thanks a lot man, that was the intention. Glad it payed off.

[ShAdYTiLIDie]

Damn man this is my favorite piece so far! the beat was aweswome! and once I caught the flow it flowed very smoothly all the time, also even while I was rapping it I felt emotion and inspiration while doing it hahah! Multis were great as usual! Sad to see you leave CW man! you moving on to AS or just not writing?? Awesome shit man!

[Mr.DGAF]

Thanks man! Basically I'm done writing solo pieces for the CW. I'm gonna try and make the switch to audio and continue to work on Catastrophic projects as well. But I'll still be feeding everybody.

[Sam.]

Basically this was whack as fuck. Why do you even write? Disgraceful. Wait, it's NOT my verse that I'm seeing, lmao. I kid, I kid. ..

Nice job, man. Really impressed by the story that you told and all the revelation that you made. It's kinda personal at the same time seems to be attached to reality. Your relation with the characters in the verse and the message that you conveyed to them was really touching. I think you revealed a lot in those lines, whilst maintaining the fact that you don't want to say the complete thing. Just in bits and pieces. What is necessary in these kind of verses is the fact that you say thing that doesn't make the reader question you. We are not supposed to know about your life, commitments. You kept that in a very low profile and yet making it immensely deep. I know what I said went over your head, but try to understand. Technically very average. I liked the part were you repeated some lines, that was really good. Keep it up. Peace.

[Mr.DGAF]

Thanks man! Yeah, this was the most therapeutic piece I've ever written. Felt good to write, and I tried to incorporate some hints of complex rhyming, but to get my point across the technicalities were lessened.

[Sam.]

Thanks man! Yeah, this was the most therapeutic piece I've ever written. Felt good to write, and I tried to incorporate some hints of complex rhyming, but to get my point across the technicalities were lessened.

Well, not everyone can be Eminem.

[Mr.DGAF]

I know haha, how he does what he does is spectacular. Amplify the emotion by twenty and rhyming by a thousand.

[Mr.DGAF]

Shameless bumpity bump bump.

[Sam.]

I know haha, how he does what he does is spectacular. Amplify the emotion by twenty and rhyming by a thousand.

He's a mahfuckin genius, plus his level of practice is extra ordianry.

[Mr.DGAF]

Haha it was roughly 3-5 hours to just sit and write.