"I Tried Counting Sheep - There's One I Always Miss"

[Solace]

I wrote this months ago. I just kept going, so you can see there's little difference between the verses. Then when I finished I separated into 4 verses and added a shitty hook. I doubt any of you would want to read all of it, but yeah.



Filled with massive regrets I am phased with,
Carried with me, feeling neglected and hated,
But with it I've got a reflection that's fading,
Hopeless, notice life's direction is changin',
All health is youth, seems I'm growing older,
Yet I maintain muscle for holding boulders,
Over shoulders, and the world can pass me by,
Even though it looks at me and it's acting nice,
Won't talk to me? I fill up with some gratitude,
Only for it to simply build up into attitude...
I think some people are remotely legit, shit,
I'll open up...Let them know me the bittest,
Only to get treated oh so nonexistent,
Smile as they get their stories so twisted...
A fake smile...So now am I the dopest deal?
Please tell me...How am I supposed to feel?

What are you expecting me to be?
Seems I'm not enough, not enough,
All complaints never seem to cease,
You caught my bluff, caught my bluff.

Every movement of mine's laced with breaking trust,
Everyone of my worst nightmares are waking up,
Mindstate has gotten worse, my hate's a common curse,
Joke about death until I'm placed just off this earth,
Some people say that I'm the worst they could do...
Physical pain is nothing, what hurts is the truth,
Always writing, damn I'm in need of some sleep,
Easily beat, yet I'd be without a reason to be,
If I leave instantly without sheets of pieces to read,
To carry about my legacy after being deceased...
Deceived and teased you will see, I'm frustrated,
No will to live, zip my lips, felt enough hatred,
This stuff's the same shit, different day, tired of it,
Being backstabbed is no fun but the liars love it,
I'm above it, I would never ever sink that low see,
Don't judge, I don't even think you know me...

What are you expecting me to be?
Seems I'm not enough, not enough,
All complaints never seem to cease,
You caught my bluff, caught my bluff.

I feel that my fear's not going to change,
And I'm here as a tear drops to my page,
I'm false, I'm broke, I'm at an all time low,
At rock bottom I have to halt my hopes,
Back to nightmares, I hate dreaming,
Have to fight scared, I stay screaming,
In dismay on these grey days fiendish,
Living in a world with staged meaning,
Stop just to shout, being honest and now,
Don't know if I know what I'm talking about,
Man I'm lost and laughing with my stress wow,
And the cost of happiness is death now,
I notice I've been pushed and depressed,
Stuck as a mess, I'm always put to the test,
Sit and think on this brink of destruction,
Try to put my mind to ink like it's nothin'.

What are you expecting me to be?
Seems I'm not enough, not enough,
All complaints never seem to cease,
You caught my bluff, caught my bluff.

Got to mention I'm lost with lots of tension,
My mind's a warzone or some armageddon,
Always stuck in a stagnant state of mind,
Always run at the wrong place and time,
Got no fire in me even if I lit up the candle,
And knowing me, I'd even sit in a standstill,
Seems I live in a landfill with a mind corrupt,
Where every single line of mine is fucked,
Rhymes bloodsucked, I feel I need a break,
I live the night so how could I seize the day?
Plead for change, I've been driven by stares,
I just need the oxygen but I ain't living by air,
Success is in the cup, I ain't sipped on my share,
Recently I feel the need in me to rip out my hair,
Without wisdom to share, I only lie awake,
Try to learn from my mistakes, supplied with hate.

What are you expecting me to be?
Seems I'm not enough, not enough,
All complaints never seem to cease,
You caught my bluff, caught my bluff.

[DƎRDYPK]

I just gave it a quick read & I think it's pretty dope cuz
if this is months old I wonder what your new stuff would look like
but on the real...all verses were pretty decent...
if I had to pick a favorite it'd be the 2nd
especially with a line like

Physical pain is nothing, what hurts is the truth,

^^^^ I can feel that
I can feel it so much I put it in my favorite quotations on facebook...lol
keep up the good work & stay skating homie

[Solace]

The 2nd's my favourite verse too, heh. And damn, honored to be on your favourite quotes Along with Sentus' dope line. Thanks for peeping the entire thing, appreciated as usual!