this isn't the place for it man. too many kids. meet me on the bluelight forumsDe'anumb Halftongue wrote:what a bunch of haters..
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De'anumb Halftongue wrote:Has anyone ever experienced an extreme higher state of consciousness that came naturally without drugs? Well its happened to me before and its so hard to explain just what happens but I will do my best to explain it. The most intense feeling I ever had was when I did Ecstasy, well this higher state of awareness feeling was probably 1,000 times more intense and vivid. I felt like I was in heaven, not redeemed or condemned. I was right in the middle and I felt like I was at the very center of existence. My emotions and feelings were in the most extreme of all catagorys so I felt like I was in the middle experiencing them all at the same time so I was extremely balanced and unbalanced because I wasn't controlling it. I became aware of my environment like nothing I ever had experienced before. My thoughts and the environment were connected completely. What ever my thoughts were they were in tune with everything that was happening as if I was controlling it all but not in control by desire, it was just happening. I wasn't just myself I felt like I was everything in my sight at once like everything had the same mind or something. It was like my mind was controlling its own thoughts and knew how to predetermine what came into my sight so that whatever I would see had relationship to what I was thinking. For example, when I went into this tunnel under a bridge at first my thoughts were positive and it was brighter. As I kept walking my thoughts became negative and it got darker and then glass appeared on the ground and when I saw that I turned around and walked away and my thoughts became positive again but I wasn't in control of what I was thinking the environment was it seemed. Then I came to a river and I seen a black bird across the river just standing on the rocks and for some reason I had to go over to the other side to get closer to it. When I finally got close enough I seen that it was just a black hole in the rocks. Then my body was directed to one certain spot on the rocks next to the river were I sat down, it was a place where my thoughts and entire being was in harmony with everything. For some reason I was convinced to drink from the river so I did. Then some birds starting coming near the river on the other side. I saw one get in the river and take a quick bath but I somehow knew it before it happened. I was talking to them and they would move and chirp as if we were communicating somehow. Like with our consciousness'. It was all very intense as it was happening I just remember thinking why is this happening, there must be a reason. I also remember when I was sitting by the lake that I was in the presence of God, Jesus, and also satan. I remember talking to satan telling him that I couldn't help him because in my mind my heart or spirit I was receiving the message that he was asking for my help. After that it rubbed off but my mind still wasn't mine to control. I was in another form of consciousness for about 3 months and in the middle of those 3 months is when the extreme part happened. It was only after my incident happened that I snapped out of it. I don't know what the purpose of any of it happening was or what I was supposed to do I just hope it made me a better human and that I didn't let God down because I really felt the enemy and his forces were either trying really hard to stop me from doing something or trying really hard to get me to do something. I really wonder if anyone has ever gone through the same trial and felt the things that I felt and if their mind has gone where mine went. I think this higher form of consciousness is something that many people will encounter sometime or another but they will have different results and experience with it. Anyway thats about it. Whatever it was I don't have the answers to only God does but like I said I hope I didn't let Him down. Goodnight peeps rest easy.
Has anyone ever experienced an extreme higher state of consciousness that came naturally without drugs? Well its happened to me before and its so hard to explain just what happens, but I will do my best to explain it.
The most intense feeling I ever had was when I did Ecstasy, well this higher state of awareness feeling was probably 1,000 times more intense and vivid. I felt like I was in heaven, not redeemed or condemned. I was right in the middle and I felt like I was at the very center of existence.
My emotions and feelings were in the most extreme of all category so I felt like I was in the middle experiencing them all at the same time, so I was extremely balanced and unbalanced because I wasn't controlling it.
I became aware of my environment like nothing I ever had experienced before. My thoughts and the environment were connected completely. What ever my thoughts were they were in tune with everything that was happening as if I was controlling it all but not in control by desire, it was just happening.
I wasn't just myself I felt like I was everything in my sight at once like everything had the same mind or something. It was like my mind was controlling its own thoughts and knew how to predetermine what came into my sight so that whatever I would see had relationship to what I was thinking.
For example: When I went into this tunnel under a bridge at first my thoughts were positive and it was brighter.
As I kept walking my thoughts became negative and it got darker and then glass appeared on the ground and when I saw that I turned around and walked away and my thoughts became positive again, but I wasn't in control of what I was thinking the environment was it seemed.
Then I came to a river and I seen a black bird across the river just standing on the rocks and for some reason I had to go over to the other side to get closer to it. When I finally got close enough I seen that it was just a black hole in the rocks.
Then my body was directed to one certain spot on the rocks next to the river were I sat down, it was a place where my thoughts and entire being was in harmony with everything. For some reason I was convinced to drink from the river so I did. Then some birds starting coming near the river on the other side. I saw one get in the river and take a quick bath but I somehow knew it before it happened. I was talking to them and they would move and chirp as if we were communicating somehow. Like with our consciousness'.
It was all very intense as it was happening I just remember thinking why is this happening, there must be a reason. I also remember when I was sitting by the lake that I was in the presence of God, Jesus, and also satan. I remember talking to satan telling him that I couldn't help him because in my mind my heart or spirit I was receiving the message that he was asking for my help. After that it rubbed off but my mind still wasn't mine to control. I was in another form of consciousness for about 3 months and in the middle of those 3 months is when the extreme part happened.
It was only after my incident happened that I snapped out of it. I don't know what the purpose of any of it happening was or what I was supposed to do, I just hope it made me a better human and that I didn't let God down, because I really felt the enemy and his forces were either trying really hard to stop me from doing something, or trying really hard to get me to do something.
I really wonder if anyone has ever gone through the same trial and felt the things that I felt and if their mind has gone where mine went. I think this higher form of consciousness is something that many people will encounter sometime or another but they will have different results and experience with it.
Anyway thats about it. Whatever it was I don't have the answers to only God does but like I said I hope I didn't let Him down. Goodnight peeps rest easy
iHeart wrote:viJilance, I took the liberty of separating the paragraphs since you expressed your eternal desire to read OP's experience. Enjoy.
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