Behind My Fake Smile

[Solace]

I'm too weak to write and even the best need some sleep at night,
All evil sights which creep and fight, continuously reap my rights,
I'm wishing for some way out but not even a water fountain on,
The doubt is strong, larger than the mountain I am mounted on,
Just thinking of my fate, I cringe and in the current state I'm in,
The enemies I face within are more scary than the face of grim,
So I sit and have to take it in, just as I take this rope and then,
Escape this place of major hate, and think blissfully as I hold a pen,
Lesser than the opposition, sliced and severed by the competition,
I know that independence is a bitch yet I'd never stop to listen,
End up with ya arms just missing, 'cause my stress is pain enough,
To deal with your life too leaves my brain gray, strained and rough,
And I won't ever make enough, everything just has my tainted touch,
Thus with the faintest brush I kill all living so I stay crazed, lay in lush,
Hush, hope to pray enough to live through but life is too unfair to be,
And only now I drown in the thought that I'm just really scared of me,
Just look at me, fuck the cover; I'm really just not a book to read,
I leave even my shooken see, influenced by all crooks who greed,
Lost in this graceless land, I think it's about time that I take a stand,
Though forced to sit, remorse and ripped, don't know if I'll make it man,
Clothed in insecurities though naked and, been burned from the start,
I just lurk in the parks worthless and dark due to the hurt in my heart,
Just always have us feeling further apart, and left connectionless,
And leave me st-studdering and too troubled to finish sentences,
But this all doesn't matter to you and that matter is rather real true,
The latter is crude, take a knife in life, it deserves a stab in or two,
It isn't sound I will rip shit down, though do I really care enough?
I've got broken bones, not known to home and my stare is just,
A careless rough, diamond crying that was never mined out,
I'll stop, just give me a chance then I'll have nothing to rhyme 'bout.

[classthe_king]

Dang solace this was great. Rhyming was crazy and the flow was almost perfect. It read so smooth.

[Arabian Shady]

That structure was off the hizzzle ma nizzle, lol
the flow was superb, and had a pretty good meanin to it
good stuff, glad to see you postin again bro
Peace!

[Solace]

Thanks all 3 of you, greatly appreciated.

@Arabian Shady, I always post but they get bumped down a lot so I just decide whats the point of writing if theres no one that'll check it; you know? But I'll start being more active in CW like FaQ (dude's a fucking beast) in the coming weeks.