LoF
Just Silver
Pain
I wish everyday were a dream cause everythings crazy
Just last night I was rapping jay z on some jet skis
Amazingly I was more talented than him
So as soon as I awoke I took out the pen
And the pad don't want the end of this thought to lose it's grasp
Went back to the world that night but it had changed
Mentally deranged demons had entered my brainwaves
Killings near a child's playground and a chain link
Fence it's such a mess these kids have no self-defense
Learning from within depictions of the severed skin
Makes me wince and wake up
Cold sweats from my feet to my A-cups
I wanted to save the kid he kept spitting up blood
And it looked like me from settling with all these drugs
Washed up laundromat face don't want a part of that
Even though my fate didn't have to resolve to that the kettle is black
The crack is just white my eyelids black for the night
I slip back into my scene that I like or just love
It's because I'm sick of reality it's quite too
Challenging , drugs help me numb it
Part of me is unplugged but im learning what's rugged
Dreams are a waste of time
Unless your just a waste of time
Sometimes.. learn with this place in mind
And just dream till my times all up in this world
Same dreams over again, either I'm running or chasing
With a gun up in my face shit or stunned without a trace and
I can't escape it, so many things I can't grip or understand
I spawn in the gutter and can't get a hint too, other than
The old park bench by the orange apartments where I grew up
Where I knew much too young, friends family who do drugs
Fucking chewed up and beat up, bruised but feeling so so
Cuz when I walked in my old home a feeling so stone cold
Blew passed, confused, my home holds the warmest memories
But when I walked to my old room, the sound of swarming enemies
The walls speak to me, but it's just the room echoing my fears
Severing my ears, trying to tell myself to let it go and endear
Then I'm covered in smoke, c'mon take the edge off take a hit
Just a whiff, it'll be alright, I say fine I give in just wait a bit
Now I'm consumed in gloom, I wonder how long these drugs'll last
Just want it to end so I hold my fucking breath until my lungs collapse
Dreams are a waste of time
Unless your just a waste of time
Sometimes.. learn with this place in mind
And just dream till my times all up in this world